Really?

I understand crying uncontrollably over something little when I have PMS. I understand crying for no apparent reason at all when I’ve had a few drinks. I understand crying over everything when I’m stressed and overtired and overwhelmed. But when none of the above apply and I’m sitting at the computer crying for all of the above reasons, I just don’t even know what to do with myself besides write and write and write and hope that the tears and the words work their way out and I can leave them on the screen and on the keyboard and not take them to my pillow with me. This song is probably not helping, but I’ve just heard it for the first time and it is so simply and painfully beautiful, I have to share it with you and listen to it again. And maybe once again after that.

Opportunities.

While I truly hate the phrase, “Everything happens for a reason,” I do believe that sometimes the reasons are easier to see than others. I’ve applied for a position as an administrative support to one of the executives in our organization, and I learned when they scheduled the interview that I know a member of the interview panel socially. I knew she worked here, but we’re on different campuses and the one time we saw one another, it was one of those moments when you see someone out of context and can’t place them right away; I’d only ever seen her at friends’ houses, community events, that sort of thing, so it took me a minute to recognize her in a work setting. It turns out that she held the position I’ve applied for until last week, when she moved to support another administrator, so she’s helping to select her replacement. I emailed her to comment on the pleasant surprise I had when I heard her name, and we wrote back and forth a few times, discussing the position a bit, the folks with whom I’d be working, and what the candidate pool looks like so far. I felt pretty confident going into the process already, but this helped quite a bit – as I said to her, a friendly face on an interview panel makes it feel a little less like a firing squad :) So, tomorrow afternoon at 2:30, I shall strut my stuff over to the Veranda campus (p.s. the grounds are GORGEOUS, the employee gym is over there, they have a professionally equipped kitchen – would love to work at that site) and do my best to wow the panel while getting to know the people I’d be working with most closely.

So, yeah. I guess we’ll see what happens, but I have a good feeling. I have a lot of skills to offer to the position itself, and I feel like it would be a good place to be as far as making myself more visible as an asset to the organization in general. Any positive vibes you wanna send my way, I’ll take ’em!